In order to apply to the Stockholm School of Economics, students need to have certain qualifications for example studied certain courses such as a higher level of math. Since my studies at high school didn’t offer that, I had to study that at a municipality adult education. The certificate from the course had to be sent in and registered at the administrative autority that arranges the applications for university. First then, I met the requriements from the school.

The problem was that my letter with the certificate never got to the autority. I got very angry and felt like the smallest person in the world who were arguing with administrative people who sent me from one person to another, no one knowing who to speak with. At the end, everything worked out alright.

Since then I feel unconfortable  leaving important material in someone elses hands. Almost  the same thing happened to me this week, when I was applying to my university in Canada. (Where I am going to be studying at during the fall)

I got into panic and tried to call, email and get in contact with someone who could help me with the issue since my contact person wasn’t answering. I then talked to my father who asked me how everything ended the last time this happened. And my answer was, ”everything went to be alright”. And he just agreed and reasurred me that that would be the case this time aswell. I guess, that sometimes , there is no need to frenetical try to solve the problem, when it actually is not yours. In the end, usually things work out.

I have noticed that I am a person that constantly is living in present. When I am in Stockholm, my focus fully relies on my life here and the people I spend time with every day. Therefore, since many of my older friends are living in other parts of Sweden I tend to speak with them rather rarely. And when I do, I feel that we have to talk for hours to get through all the missed conversations. The whole thing ends up with a catch 22 where I defend my anxiety with arguments like; ”I don’t have a lot of time right now. I call here tomorrow!”. (Tomorrow is probably more like next week.)

Since we are living in different parts of Sweden during the year, we have come to take advantage of the holidays doing things together. Last week I went to Gothenburg for a festival with my friends from high school. Straight after meeting them I realized that the anxiety of being a lousy friend was completely unnecessary. With them, the “catch up” phase goes quickly since they know me within and without. No need to explain things thoroughly, they just understand and the friendship continues from where we left it. Long lasting friendship can stay strong even if the contact sometimes is inadequate.