Yesterday, I was looking threw the other authors articles finding them intressting. I found inspiration and realized that they reveal a lot that I hadn’t thought about. For example I believe I have a presupposition that I am a slow reader. During a course in strategy the exam contained reading a case and then answering a couple of questions. I horrified this way of examination. When practising cases before the exam I always finished reading after my friends. And defended this with that ”I have always been a slow reader”.

Reading threw an article about speeding up the reading, I defenitely came to the very basic conclusion that; if something is bugging me, why not improve it? So therefore, a new goal is to read books at my sparetime. The summer will be a good time for starting with that and practising not reading so throughtly.

In order to apply to the Stockholm School of Economics, students need to have certain qualifications for example studied certain courses such as a higher level of math. Since my studies at high school didn’t offer that, I had to study that at a municipality adult education. The certificate from the course had to be sent in and registered at the administrative autority that arranges the applications for university. First then, I met the requriements from the school.

The problem was that my letter with the certificate never got to the autority. I got very angry and felt like the smallest person in the world who were arguing with administrative people who sent me from one person to another, no one knowing who to speak with. At the end, everything worked out alright.

Since then I feel unconfortable  leaving important material in someone elses hands. Almost  the same thing happened to me this week, when I was applying to my university in Canada. (Where I am going to be studying at during the fall)

I got into panic and tried to call, email and get in contact with someone who could help me with the issue since my contact person wasn’t answering. I then talked to my father who asked me how everything ended the last time this happened. And my answer was, ”everything went to be alright”. And he just agreed and reasurred me that that would be the case this time aswell. I guess, that sometimes , there is no need to frenetical try to solve the problem, when it actually is not yours. In the end, usually things work out.

I have noticed that I am a person that constantly is living in present. When I am in Stockholm, my focus fully relies on my life here and the people I spend time with every day. Therefore, since many of my older friends are living in other parts of Sweden I tend to speak with them rather rarely. And when I do, I feel that we have to talk for hours to get through all the missed conversations. The whole thing ends up with a catch 22 where I defend my anxiety with arguments like; ”I don’t have a lot of time right now. I call here tomorrow!”. (Tomorrow is probably more like next week.)

Since we are living in different parts of Sweden during the year, we have come to take advantage of the holidays doing things together. Last week I went to Gothenburg for a festival with my friends from high school. Straight after meeting them I realized that the anxiety of being a lousy friend was completely unnecessary. With them, the “catch up” phase goes quickly since they know me within and without. No need to explain things thoroughly, they just understand and the friendship continues from where we left it. Long lasting friendship can stay strong even if the contact sometimes is inadequate.

In the beginning of this project we read the book ”Getting things done” by David Allen. The book is all about how we need to get ”things” out of our mind, organize/record our the things/thoughts and get them done. The first part of the book is pretty out-of-date where he guides the reader through the process of organizing for example your working place with file folders, labelers etc. So that when you come up with something it is easier to get things done.

Even if what he describes is out of date, I find the message about having things organized very helpful during stressful periods. Going into an exam period or a rough period of work you will save a lot of time and energy if your home is clean, the frigde is filled and you have printed materials needed. I try to take Sundays for preparing all this for the coming week and it has definitely worked out well for me. Coming home tired and late to a clean home knowing that you have breakfast for the next morning is desirable.

I have always been a person with goals. Some of them small, some bigger. Whether it has been saving money to travel around the world or achieve the highest grade in a course. But my exercising has been an exception from that.

Before this project I saw exercising as something I did to be healthy and get fit. And I often came into periods when training felt extremely boring but something I had to do.

The last month, I have enjoyed all the workouts I have undertaken. Why is that?
I came up with a really simple solution. Because I set up goals for my training. You can always run faster, become smoother and take heavier weights. With stated goals, it is easier to see progress and feel good about yourself.